Phirlie.Inc

Didn't do anything much lately.
was just slacking around at home.
going for trainings @ Bukit Batok, out with friends for cycling and all.
Life Bored for me, SERIOUSLY.

i'm kinda hate this guy who apparently to be a friend of my.
not anymore now.
but during club training is club training.
outside, no no mr. nice guy from me.
trying to steal her away from me by your sweet words and singing huh?
but you know what? let her decide. not you.
i'll leave it to her to decide. anyway its for her Happiness though.
not YOURS dumbhead.

anyway, went cycling last monday.
together with Lily, Lyha and Fazly.
then off to Sheesha-ing at Arab Street with Falah.
ohh, he's another idiot who apparently talk back behind me n her.
what a BASTARD! tsk tsk tsk.

did took loads of pictures.
but i'm just shagged and lazy to upload.

hahaha! can?

lol.

saturday BIG DAY!

BIG DEBUT! how am i gonna play?

with my best, with my nervousness..?? which one.

i'm half nervous now. so as my confidence are here with me.

we're hoping to maintain our place in Div 1.

from there we can reconstruct our team. haha.

there's sectional tomorrow.

will be going for prayers then to my driving.

after that gonna meet Nurul Idatullah @ Queenstown.

i asked her to tag along with me to Queensway to print my Jersey #68.

so after that then straight up to Sectional.

see you bandsmen.. =))

alright then, till here.

signing out . .

maybe i am.

maybe i am USELESS.
USELESS has been in my mind for years since after my N level.
USELESS has been described in me.
USELESS has always been in me ever since then.

i'm just feeling USELESS to friends.
and that's the reason why i'm having friends behaving this way around me.
not all, but most of them.
not you people who's reading this.

i still think i am.

i'm giving it a SILENT.

i can't handle it no more.
been trying to make me feel good whenever we talk/chat.
but whenever we're online, it never seems to be that way.
rather running away or giving reasons for not meeting me or to chat with me.
i've no idea. maybe it's just me.

just maybe..

whatever it is, i can't handle it.
not gonna lose it but i'm trying to be as attitude as her.
i'm gonna give her the SILENT me.
which will never gonna contact her for today and tomorrow.
a date with her on Friday still consider.
no news, no date.

i still can't understand what she really wants.
what she really need. i'm quite lost right now.
feel like i'm losing her.
but..

no i'm not gonna do that.
maybe it's my feelings.
maybe all this wasn't meant to be what i've thought all this while.
maybe.. just maybe..


signing out . .

all the best BDSSB!!

Singapore floorball League commence anytime soon.
can't wait for the Division 1 season to start this coming 18th.

although i'm selected as 2nd choice keeper.
hopefully i get to play much and gain experience from there.
Insyaallah.

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anyway, didn't update for quite sometime.
was i that busy. well, i guess.
but actually i'm not.
just that since school is over for me,
my time management was like HAY-WIRE.
tsk tsk tsk.

and i've been missing someone lately.
i've yet to meet yana for quite some times.
guessed it's still hard for her to go out with me.
heh, reasons behind it. complicated actually.

and seems to me now, Ruzaimah just can't let me go.
she still keeps messaging me here and there.
quite irritating la. how? *yakdish!*
sorry, but i have to leave her.
many reasons. only few who knows.
sorry, i never wanna make her look bad.

but come to think of it, what so special about me till amira's and ruzaimah's missing me?
sorry, but i think i'm just a normal guy.
haha. seriously, i'm not that handsome right?
ain't that cute either right?
oh, about me saying that i'm cute all the time. i was just joking around.
i know i ain't cute. HAHA!
so someone can tell me please.. what's so SPECIAL about me.
hahaha! if not, takper lorr. ahaha!

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all the best to my juniors.
few more hours to your SYF.
do your best, make yourself proud.
its for you guys. you've work hard enough.
just do what you've done. whatever it is, i'm proud of you.

the best batch of players i've met so far in BDSSB.
smile! =))

Saturday's outing

watched Mall Cop yesterday with the bandmates.

quite hilarious. heh heh.

ouh and by the way, we watched @ the new Film Garde cinema.

next up, it's gonna be Fast & Furious 4.

since planning with everyone was abit too dificult.

i thought of watching with dear.

have not ask her yet, but i will later tonight. =))

bandmates, no worries.

this friday, KARAOKE session?

can..? me and fa'riqe gonna bring u somewhere and LET'S MELALAK!

hahahaha!

"Isabella - Fa'riqe, Fadhli, Nabil and Firli"

ooooohh, can't wait! HAHAH!

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apparently, something came out yesterday.
i can't understand why people starts to behave differently.

both of my friends kinda unhappy with another person joining us.
just look at it yesterday.
Hafiz wasn't that bad.
Nabil/Fa'riqe felt unhappy with him joining us because he wasn't the way he is.
ha ha ha ha ha. well, Welcome to the NS world.

let me tell you, he's changing.
and so are you. and so am i.
but for sure once we got to meet, definitely we'll be the way we were before.
because why, memories between us will never change.
we will never forget about the past.
on how we behave, on how we hang out together.

just sharing with dearie,
she too kinda worried that i'll change.
forgive me people and dearie.
i'll change of course for sure.
BUT to a better person it would be.
i'll never forget you guys for sure.
but forgive me again if i never contact nor communicate that well during my NS.
hope you people understand.

just so worried now that people might feel unhappy just like the way Nabil/Fa'riqe felt towards Hafiz.
saddening of course.
why can't this people be more understanding.
=((

i love you people.
love you too, love. =))

happy news . .

I'm happy upon receiving great news earlier today.
hehehe totally happy with it.

i got a place in Republic Polytechnic. THANK GOD!
no matter what the course is, it's still got to do with Electronics.
and i'll be going there after my NS.
as i have to complete it first before joining Poly.

sad huh.?
hahaha..

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dearie was happy with my results.
i'm sure she is. though she's kinda busy.

finally we talk things out later tonight.
meaning just now.
it was me who started it first.
and later part here she says..

"pls dont think like that dear. i've nvr tot that of u.(i told her that i tot she might wanna leave me and all). Even tho i'm not around, that doesnt mean i forget abt you. i'm sorry 4 not givin u much attention. U'r a good HANDSOME man. you deserve to be treated right and i'm sorry if i dont make u happy all the time. i do care abt you syg. don't be sad k"

and so i ask her, will she change or leave it the way it is..
here she goes..

"i will, change all that. but not too soon dear. i nd to improve myself (due to the past history. complicated, nvm), achieve what i wanna achieve. you focus on doing ur service(which apparently, i'm not yet being called-up. funy dearie.). not to worry, i wont go anywhere, okay? :-) I MISS U baby. u take care. Sweet dreams."

i miss you too. no worries too dearie k?
ain't gonna rush things up.
let's take a slow ride down and up the hills of mountains and valley yea?

for you sayang. hee.

Signing out . .

1st beginning for this month.

am sad really.. totally..
not sure what happened to me lately.
sometimes by trying to make them happy,
they would just hit you back with a slap on your face.
well, most of the time was like that.

am i being too nice to them.
or am i being too much to them?
they would just take me for granted.

earlier incident was @ SCH.
i was queuing up for the tickets.
the bandmates suddenly went off to buy food.
it's ok about that. they did tell us.
BUT, can't they wait for awhile and go off together.?
and and, i was queuing up for the tickets for THEM too.

ok actually, i'm fine with that.
now after they left, they didn't really tell us where exactly they were.
nabil and me apparently had to walk around the whole area la to find them.
1stly, can't you give exact location.
2nd, this is the reason why you should wait for us just for awhile.
so that we could go together and not letting me called you guys for several time.

anyway, i know you guys surely hate it when i keep calling right?
kids nowadays.
i'm totally pissed off for awhile.